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流浪不写诗的诗人5月6日 给小叉的一封信 亲爱的小叉
突然很想给你写封信,许久没有给你写封信了,你还好吗?一切平安吗?一切自在 吗?一切顺利吗?一切有进展吗?一切都解开了吗?一切还是那般混沌吗?一切还好吗? 原来认真的会变现时的,现时无敌,好久没说过浪漫的话,好久没做过疯狂的事 了,好久没想过无谓的事了,好久没调过白痴的侃了,好久了,不知道自己都在干了些什么,都在干什么,都想要继续干什么。 微积分课,我一个字都没有听进去,就快要下课了,就快要期末考了,快要毕业了, 我似乎什么都没想过,什么都没做过,什么都没说过。其实有时不爽的感觉还挺爽的,觉得不? 昨天,我验血型去了,我是A型,我是个认真的人,就像我一再向周围的人强调的一 样,我真的很认真,真的很严肃。今天在校道上,听着好久没听得歌曲,望着阴沉沉的天,有人跟我说了一句话,我几乎就要哭出来了,I'm dying in the sun, I'm dying in the sun, I'm dying in the sun, I'm dying...这使我想哭过多少 遍的歌曲,好久没被音乐撼动过了,好久了,好久了,好久了,我不敢去感受自己 ,感受事情,感受生命,我不敢,我不敢。秋天过去了,春天过去了,夏天就要来 了,冬天就要走了。好久了,我不敢感受秋天的寒风,不敢去呆望那雷电交加夏天 的夜,不敢去嗅春天湿润的空气,我害怕,我害怕,害怕想起什么,我害怕会回忆 什么,我害怕头会不自觉地向后望,我害怕去感受,这一切不好受的回忆的感觉, 我害怕我的泪水会不自觉地掉下来,我害怕自己又陷入那一个哀伤的周六下午。我 害怕,我害怕,我逃避着这一切,我不用脑,不用五官,去逃避这感伤。 我懦弱,是的,我懦弱。我已经没有正视人生,正面过去的勇气。我甚至不敢 去正面自己。我塑造着一个个虚假的我,在不同的人面前晃动不同的脸,不同的面 具。我害怕面具被人刺破,害怕被人揭穿,我害怕,我害怕,面具越来越厚,恐惧 越来越深。深得我恨不得把所有镜子划破,把所有眼睛挖出来,把所有人杀光,把 所有脑吞噬。恨不得没有人认识我,恨不得所有人是我的人都…… 6月20日 2个月又2个月了
又2年了
人生还有多少个2个月,多少个2年
正如lenon曾说
Life is like a roll of toilet peper, the closer it gets to the end the faster it goes
听着厕纸刷刷滑掉的声音
总是感到害怕
时间,你究竟是何物?
为何折磨着我们,折磨着世人,折磨着可怜的人们...
1月8日 最后的英文课大作文Life and Me
Never wait or hesitate Get in kid, before it's too late You may never get another chance 'Cos youth a mask but it don't last live it long and live it fast" ---- Rob Steward
Unwillingly I landed on this messy world, with a heart of pure and simple. With no hope no regret, no satisfaction no disappointment, I’m just purely taking breathe of the air, and crying for food and body desire, laughing for nothing. Life for me at that time, was purely a name without meaning, cause I can’t even comprehend such a thing. The only thing that I felt was it was a time of flying, I could go where I wanna be in my world. Flying higher and higher like a bird soaring freely without string. That’s how I was growing during my period of innocence. As the time went by, things started to get change. My body of “bird” was getting heavier and heavier, the pressure was getting on me. Life was no longer a word without sense now, instead, it became a word of anger, a word of mess, a word of pressure, a word of infinite pain…I was confused standing in the middle of a foggy road, wondering where I came from and where to go. Stumbling in a long and winding road, I was feeling trapped as a bird in cage. (which reminds me lyrics of a touching song , “this bird can’t sing when you tide its wings…”) Being tided up was exactly the way I felt then. The only thing that could got my anger and pain out of me was writing and yelling , only by which I could feel myself still alive. And that was when my life was in its 12 to 16 away from its beginning ,which was the best and the worst time, the longest and the shortest, the hardest and the happiest of my life… Life for me at that time was a word of nonsense. Since the only thing I felt towards it was a road towards death, I way to the hell. As the time goes by, winter leaves and spring arrives, my feel towards life is getting brighter and brighter. I no longer feel that I was a bird in trap but more a kite with string, since it’s only with string that a kite can fly high. I’ve found a dream of my life (travel around the world) , and the love my life (music), with which I can walk firmly towards a way of unknown with curiosity but not confusing, with hope but not regret. Even though it still appeals to me as a way to death, I want to fill the way with joy but not sorrow, with dream but not complaint, with music but not “dead” silence… That is life, life and me… 11月28日 匆匆 时间过得真的好快啊,昨天好像还在迎新,明天就好像要放假了~
时间过的真的好快啊,昨天好像才考完高考,明天就要大学毕业了~
时间过得真的好快啊,昨天好像还在和同学们在啡一啡食茄子牛肉饭,明天大家就已散东西了~
时间过得真的好快啊,昨天好像还在边砌木城墙边"lai"屎, 明天就不知要何去何从了~
时间过得真的好快啊 快得让我心痛 快得让我落泪......
I want a band!!! 11月27日 最棒的摇滚十大乐团本文来源于网络,作者不祥...
一篇非常变态的文章:最棒的摇滚十大乐团 TOP10.比碾核更猛,比朋克更狂,不错,这就是MC hot dog。他在台上的真诚姿态仿佛要将每一根琴弦扯断,将手中的麦克风咬碎。不错,乐迷们的担心是正确的,后来据娱乐新闻报道,MC hot dog于12月15日中午12时,在西门町当场发作,骂完名主和陈水扁,直接把肺喷到了路边的痰盂里,抢救无效,于12月15日深夜身亡。 |
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